They’re everywhere. Babies are taking over. Our new Minister for Sustainable Population certainly has his work cut out for him!
It seems Facebook has turned into a pregnancy / birth announcement bulletin board! Logged in Saturday to find an old work friend had delivered her twins early – two tiny little baby girl faces, eyes searching the world. Logged in Sunday, greeted by new pictures of a friend’s swollen belly with her husband kissing it proudly. Logged in this morning to discover yet another friend is pregnant.
Every month I get my hopes up & work out when our baby will be born. I just realised this week will be nine months since we started trying, thus being the nostalgic that I am, the ‘if only’s’ have commenced.
If only I’d conceived in November, our baby would have been born this week. A winter baby to bundle up in a rug, a play mate for my husband’s best friend’s wife who is due any day!
If only I’d conceived in December, our baby would have been born on our 2nd wedding anniversary! The perfect present!
If only I didn’t have a chemical pregnancy in January, our baby would have been the family’s first October baby!
If only I’d conceived in February, our baby would have been born on Armistice Day! A fitting tribute to my grandfather who fought in WWII!
If only my March pregnancy hadn’t been ectopic, our baby would have been born just in time for Christmas, the same time my friend Caz is due with her second!
If only I didn’t have a chemical pregnancy in May, our baby would have been born on Valentine’s Day, the same time my friend Lisa is due with her second!
If only I hadn’t miscarried in July, our baby would have been born on my Mum’s birthday in March – the perfect present & true to my mother-in-law’s premonition!
If only I didn’t have a chemical pregnancy in August, our baby would have been born on my mother-in-law’s birthday, the perfect present!
How depressing…I do it to myself I know! This is what I excel at. I may be mediocre at everything else in my life but I am an expert when it comes to melancholy & self-torture! This is killing me…
1 comment:
I just discovered your blogs and having read this post am sobbing. I am so grateful you are a mum now. Our gap of five years between our two certainly wasn't a choice and all I can tell you is I'm so glad our Tate was the one that finally stuck because he is amazing. Love to you xx
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