#reverb12: Day 12: My most intense emotion

This year has certainly been a merry-go-round of emotions.

At times I've squealed for it never to stop & looked up in wonder at the way the sunlight plays with the leaves on the trees, trying to focus on a single point in an attempt to hold that moment in time while the world around me kept on spinning.

I squealed for the sheer joy of being a mother

I squealed for my little boy when he walked & talked

I squealed when my wonderful husband became a Doctor

I squealed when my parents visited for B's first birthday

I squealed for my brother when he got the job that would bring him & his family closer to us

And other times I've pleaded for the world to slow down, yelling "Let me off! I feel sick...".

I pleaded for time on my own

I pleaded for my little baby boy not to grow up so fast

I pleaded for my #fabulousnewmanboys to get better

I pleaded for this not to be happening to us again

I pleaded for my life

♥ Dani

#reverb12 Day 11: What was music to my ears?

Two simple words: "I passed!"

 

After four long & often gruelling years, my husband announcing he had passed his final medical exams was like finding water in the desert.

 

And today, it was official...Ladies & Gentleman....my husband, MD.

♥ Dani

#reverb12 Day 8: Your most important relationship?

Can I cheat & have two?

♥ Dani

#reverb12 Day 2. My most significant spend...

This year my most significant spend was a much needed & well deserved tropical holiday full of...

naps...

nostalgia (the beach where we were married)...

kicking & spinning...

nude ball...

swimming...

me time...

babycinos & marshmallows...

playing on the beach...

contemplation...

family time...

BBQ'ing...

chilling out with old friends & new bubbas...

picnics...

& being well-informed about safety matters! ;)

♥ Dani

#reverb12 Day 1. How am I starting?

It feels very odd to be contemplating new beginnings right now...lately my mind has been firmly planted in the either the past or the future as I contemplate the year that was & the path imagined that keeps changing, as it is wont to do.

We have spent this last week holidaying in an old resort town home of ours & it has been a very timely & surreal experience recalling our lives here. This is where we fell in love, where we got married, where we forged some amazing friendships & where many of the dreams for our life together began. Returning here with B to play in the parks we'd previously ignored & meet the bubbas born in our absence has been a magical occasion indeed.

So...how am I starting?

With a fresh perspective on where we are & how far we've come

With reinvigorated friendships & new memories to treasure

With a little boy who is now saying 'car'

With a beautiful & wonderfully clever new Doctor for a husband (so proud!)

With a heavy heart & an empty space for the baby we were longing to meet

With the physical traces of pain & loss

With a Christmas shopping list as long as the line up for Santa photos

With a creative thirst

With a full social calendar

With the smell of sunscreen...

♥ Dani